a new mom.

Some of you may be aware that my Mom has been on a slow {until recently} incline, exhibiting symptoms related to Alzheimer's Disease more & more each year.

Since I first realized something was "off" {6 yrs. ago} I've adjusted - sometimes well, sometimes not - to the changes in her personality but then 3 weeks ago, we hit a new place & all things changed.

Due to the advancement of Mom's illness, she can no longer live alone & has officially been moved into my Sister's home -- and boy she is NOT happy.

Can you imagine how she feels? Everything in her life has changed in just a few weeks. Her mind, which has always been so sharp, is now unpredictable. She can no longer count on it to make sense of the world she's living in.

On days like today she sounds frustrated, confused & helpless. I have a "new" Mom.

I've returned to this blog because I am aware that I cannot hold this life challenge in.

I need help. Help to understand the disease's progression. Help to manage the pain as I have to endure watching it.

I'm reminded at this moment of my Refuge Vows, that I took just a few years ago & was blessed to have my Mom witness:

I take refuge in the Buddha {the example}. I take refuge in the Dharma {the teaching/path}. I take refuge in the Sangha {the community}.

peace & blessings...

mechie the luckie one.

Comments

[Mahala Mazerov]

Luckie Mechie,
Your mother is blessed to, to have someone who will do the hard work of accepting her as she is now.
Happy you have the Dharma to support you.
I'm here for you, too.
Mahala

[mechie]

As always Mahala, I can count on you to offer the encouragement I need.

I am happy to return to my online Sangha.

mechie