i received a rare piece of welcomed 'snail mail'... a card from AL. my soulmate. it had been a month since we'd spoken. a month of a zillion tears & much hurt. BUT also a month of much love, peace & acceptance. the support i've received from my family & this Sangha i could NOT have done without... it held me up & carried me thru.
there is growth & healing wrapped inside that note. it expresses clearly what he & i both recognize... a divine love that is beyond explanation or reason AND absent of expectation & blame. the words were simple & heartfelt... bordering on poetic. a brief BUT real declaration of the obvious: i love you. you complete me. you are my soul mate. we should not fight. i will love you always.
it appears that we have both been humbled enuf to NOT expect perfection from one another... just authenticity. he nor i have requested ANYTHING from the other. there were & have not been any emerging vows or promises. no planning for the future. no pending relocations. just acceptance.
we recognize that knowing our relationship is Divine doesn't make it easy. i mean what REAL love {parental, sibling, child, family, friend} is EVER "easy"? isn't it actually their imperfections that lend to their strength & generate growth within us?
i have no crystal ball to predict the future. shoot... i have no need to even TRY to predict it! i am just at peace with learning how to love beyond expectation & comforted that somewhere in baltimore, there lives a man who is learning the same thru me.
if this is not a lesson in Patient Acceptance, i do not know what is.
Look y'all mechie's becoming a Buddha!:-)
Peace & OM!:-)
mechie
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