in pursuit of peace...

i awoke this morning smiling. well rested. excited about a day off. appreciating the beauty outside my window. yep... just smiling.

these days i find myself in constant pursuit of peace. i find myself seeking it in every area of my life... shying away from conflict & swashing it in myself when i peep it trying to bubble up. challenging myself to find another way to express my thoughts.

i desire peace for those close to me. i desire it for everyone... everywhere.

recently someone said to me "you need an argument"... how wrong they are! that's exactly what i DON'T need or desire.

i wanna know why we can't live in peace? why we can't love each other enough to not create needless pain & hurt? haven't we all been wounded enough? in the words of india... why can't we get down to the heart of the matter?

nope... i've decided to commit myself to the pursuit of peace... even when it's challenging to do so. i WANT it. i NEED it!

i use to take great pride in the tattoo resting over my heart that bares the name "Gamba Adisa" which is a Shona & Yoruba name that translates to mean "a warrior whose meaning is clear". but what i've come to understand in my almost 40 years {july 7 is the day} there is no 'win' in creating conflict. it just produces more conflict.

no doubt... i am a WARRIOR. but if i MUST war then i will fight for peace. for forgiveness. for healing. for union. for love. my days of fighting senseless battles for truths that are mere illusions are over.

and if i my meaning MUST be understood... then i will work to understand this life that i've been blessed with, to fulfill the purpose for which it was intended.

talk about coming full circle! check out my first MyDailyOm post "and so it begins..." from last july.

so my friends thank you for rolling with me thru this 'season' of my life {but i think i am over the hump now}. you will NEVER know how much your posts laced with good vibes & kind thoughts mean to me.

to close i return to my gurl india... her lyrics always hits home for me:

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

YEP! i am smiling today. happiness is a state of mind & i am feelin ALL of that!:-)

Peace & OM:-)

mechie

Comments

[mahala]

It's ALWAYS challenging to pursue peace, dear. That's why most people don't do it. So glad you're in the world and your words are out here for all of us.

And yes, just when are we going to see each other face to face? Wouldn't that be a joy!

awhhh mahala... to share a cup-o-tea & convo with you would be pure bliss! i have so many questions about how you became YOU... the road to enlightenment is always interesting, yes? you just tell me when & where... i am there!:-)

[Soul]

okay Mechie..
my comments keep disappearing from your site...
arrgghhh

[mahala]

Bliss doubled. I live in Ithaca, NY, home to the Dalai Lama's US monastery (amazing teachings, maybe you want to come for a weekend retreat, eh?) and the famous Moosewood vegetarian restaurant. Where are you?