mechie's coming out?

quite amusing to me... a few co-workers {& possibly even my lil SOUL} read my last post & kinda thought my comment "i am thankful God allowed me grace to 'come out' in my own time" meant that i was... uhmmm... 'COMING OUT'!

nawhhhh mannnnn! my 'coming out' is more like 'coming clean'! although there have been events in my life that i have been more than happy to 'share', there have also been several 'lifeshaping' events that i have chosen to bury for years now.

while i believe that every person is entitled to tame his/her own demons privately, mine are directly connected to my freedom. to my elevation as a person. to my trust in the Divine. to my life's purpose.

exposure on some level has always been a part of my Karma. sometimes voluntary, most times not, my 'secrets' never seem to remain secret & my battle to 'force' the Universe to allow me privacy has led to alot of frustration. 

it's just that i am finally saying, okayyyyy... i accept it. i'll tell, share & expose it, IF that means i can write my books in peace, plant my gardens & age with the dignity to know that i ran from NOTHING & that fear was never given ANY place in my life.

i have worked HARD to become a person that i respect. i will NEVER be satisfied with feeling that i have had to bury parts of me, to be respected {or loved} by others.

it's that simple.

Peace & OM!:)

mechie

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mechie's note: soul, what was i thinkin?  i should have known you of all people would know EXACTLY what i meant... you always, ALWAYS get me! gurl, i cannot wait until spring... we have so much to talk about!:-)

Comments

[soul]

mechie... Not at all!
I took the 'coming out' phrase as:
Finally releasing those toxic things which we hold on to for too long, to the point where they have become bigger than they should be.
Those life time events which we swear we will never share and we use them to constantly undermine ourselves and beat ourselves over the head with.

I took 'coming out' to mean... I final release, a purge... (you feel me)

[ceecee]

"i have worked HARD to become a person that i respect. i will NEVER be satisfied with feeling that i have had to bury parts of me, to be respected {or loved} by others."

I'm working on that...mechie you always drop nuggets of wisdom where i least expect it, thanks! :)