it was 2 things {among many}

that prompted my recent 'confessional' & surrender to ABSOLUTE truth. though neither were huge occurrences, they both subtly drilled home the message that 'yes mechie, God IS trying to tell you something & this is your season to listen!"

* viewing oprah on the recent PBS genealogy series i was touched by how easily she spoke of her troubled childhood & promiscuous teen years. i listened as she shared {without flinching or shame} how she was molested @ 9 years, bartered sex to prevent a cousin's husband from abusing his wife, considered suicide as a teen because she was pregnant & didn't want to 'shame' her family & lost that child post-delivery & decided to change her life.

WOW! that is the sign of a woman who has come to peace with who she REALLY is & has been. the sting does not exist... it is healed. because she has bared it all, without question to accept her today, is to accept {and acknowledge} her yesterday, too.

* reading the book 'night' by eliezer wiesel {the story of his experience as a teen in the Holocaust} i was moved by his statement that before he could go on to write his other works, he FIRST had to tell his story, because it was the foundation from which all other work had been built.

he had wanted to 'bury' his experience & 'move on' but could not... he HAD to tell it. to heal himself & others, he had to tell it.

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so 2 things among many that finally moved me. in truth {though i haven't started writing as yet} i will be glad to get past it. i am ready. i believe that the family & friends who love me today, will love me still when all has been shared. truth is, i am EXACTLY who i present myself to be today. i just need for people to understand & hear how i got here.

i just need to remove the sting...

mahala - you are so wise! there is much to ponder about divinity & blessings isn't it? it's taken me almost 40 years to understand that it is our IMPERFECTIONS that make this journey divine & blessed... i am thankful for enlightenment.

soul - my friend. i am well... i am thankful God allowed me grace to 'come out' in my own time. i am ready. when you stop trying to control the things outside of your control, you can be free. that's where i am. half-free is no longer enough. that little girl i left behind needs liberation too.

spring is coming... it's all in perfect flow isn't it?

Peace & OM!:)

mechie

Comments

[soul]

Mechie..
I'm re-reading this. And looking forward to your release for you. I'm looking forward to May. (smile)

and I'm re-reading what you wrote to me. in order to bettr understand it. I'm trying to slow down and get the real meaning... instead of skimming through like a worker bee.