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She Finished Her Work.

woke up this morning to find that Sister Coretta Scott King had crossed-over in her sleep last night. yep she's 'gone home' & hard as i try, i just cannot seem to summon up any sadness.

it's not because i don't understand how much she'll be missed & what we are losing. i understand fully & even have to stop for a moment to realize that most likely in my life, there will come a time when all those who knew Dr. King personally & all the civil rights leaders who changed life as we know it, will have passed on.

i understand too that her children have lost a Mother & for that i am sorry.

BUT did she not complete her work? she carried the work on in the most stoic & respectable of manners. a young woman left with a heavy charge & she carried it! BRILLIANTLY!

the selfless me feels happy for Sister Coretta. she can rest now. maybe even get some comforting & lovin' from Martin! shoot maybe she can enjoy a lightweight laugh or inconsequential joke without the world trying to scrutinize it now. she deserves it.

BUT the selfish me can't help but think what will we do when all the freedom-fighters & remnants of freedom-fighters cease to exist? what will happen to 'The Cause'? is there one now or will there ever be again a 'cause'? will there be new freedom-fighters who take up the charge to move the collective forward?

yep, can't help but wonder who i would be had they never existed & who our children will be when they no longer cease to exist.

just pondering... have we finished OUR work?

peace & OM!

mechie

the most amazing thing...

well amazing to me anyway!

somewhere between surgery & 3 weeks of heavy sedation my brother H has lost his ability to speak. at first i thought it was the residual effect of his medication wearing-off but it's not. something happened & now though fully awake, H is still struggling to communicate.

but here is the amazing thing. i was afraid that when he finally woke-up & realized his right limb was missing, he wouldn't be able to take it. BUT i was wrong.

instead of worrying over his missing leg OR even his impaired speech, H is healing his heart & mending old wounds. not even able to form a sentence, he called for me by name yesterday. he had my mother dial our brother today so that he could tell him he loved him. had her call our 1st cousin to ask when he was coming to 'see about him'. when an aunt visited that he had not spoken to in several years, he kissed her hands.

i am well today. knowing that no matter what H's future, his spirit is healing others while being healed. that is TRUE salvation.

peace & OM!:)

mechie

check in.

all is well & peaceful in my life. on a personal note, i am still hittin the gym... determined to greet 40 {july} in the best physical, spiritual & emotional condition EVER! moving in a very purpose-driven mode these days & getting alot accomplished.

preparing to go visit my brother who remains hospitalized. but don't go feeling sorry for us... his illness seems to have brought out the best in most everyone & for that i am thankful. i am still hopeful that he has a fruitful life ahead of him.

looking forward to the big apple & the color purple on broadway the week after! yep... i am totally geeked & can certainly use the mini-vacation! oh how i luv NY!:-)

so as i depart to read, meditate & relax i leave you with this ounce of insight to ponder:

To know when to act and when to refrain from action, what is right action and what is wrong, what brings security, what brings freedom and what bondage: these are the signs of a sattvic intellect.

Bhagavad Gita 18:30

peace & OM!:)

mechie

strength, courage & wisdom...

yep music is my retreat & today... all day... i've been rockin india. needed the positivity & the meaningful messages laced with that soothing guitar. i find myself more into thought today than i am talking... anyway, the right melody can sum EVERYTHING up quite nicely:

Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that I’ve been hiding for much too long
Cause I’ve been, too afraid to let it show
Cause I’m scared of the judgment that may follow
Always putting off my living for tomorrow
It’s time to step out on faith, I’ve gotta show my faith
It’s been illusive for so long, but freedom is mine today
I’ve gotta step out on faith, It’s time to show my faith
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

Strength, courage, and wisdom
And it’s been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

Behind my pride there lives a me, that knows humility
Inside my voice there is a soul, and in my soul there is a voice
But I’ve been, too afraid to make a choice
Cause I’m scared of the things that I might be missing
Running too fast to stop and listen

It’s time to step out on faith, I’ve gotta show my faith
It’s been illusive for so long but freedom is mine today
I’ve gotta step out on faith it’s time to show my faith
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

Strength, courage, and wisdom
And it’s been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

I close my eyes and I think of all the things that I want to see
Cause I know, now that I’ve opened up my heart I know that
Anything I want can be, so let it be, so let it be…

Strength, courage, and wisdom
It’s been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, wisdom
It’s been inside of me all along, everyday I’m praying for…

Strength, courage, and wisdom
To find me, yeah,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

I found it in me, I found it finally
I’m sure to keep it’ cause I like it, I say thank you

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peace & OM good people!:-)

the stuff dreams are made of...

tonight i listened to elton john speaking about his gift for music being his dream. how it's always been with him. how the people close to him fostered his gift. how he can never let music & melody go because it is his dream to create it.

i have this thing. i LOVE to witness folks fulfilling their dreams. be it they are winning the lottery or american idol. a game championship or a game show. it doesn't matter. i love witnessing the moment when a dream is finally attained. no matter how big or small.

i think dreams manifest for those rare few because they LIVE, BREATHE, EAT & SLEEP their dream until it just has no choice but to manifest! they SPEAK them into being!

that said i re-commit to fostering MY own dreams because i realize i just won't be content with this life any other way. it's not enough for it to be 'pleasant'. i want to witness my dreams!

i dream of seeing my 2 sons mature into good, strong, loving, honorable men. of seeing my mother at peace. of witnessing love & unity return to my family. of seeing my family... yes ALL of them healthy & really, really HAPPY.

i dream of living in a log cabin on a beautiful piece of land with a lake & canoe nearby. of spending my days, loving my soulmate, children & grandchildren. writing life-changing novels. fishing. tending my butterfly garden & rejoicing in a good life. what can i say... i am a country girl at heart?!

i dream of seeing my purpose fulfilled.

i vow to stop taking my dreams lightly. to stop subconsciously believing that i am somehow less 'worthy' or 'charmed' because my path has been less than perfect. to stop thinking my dreams are less dynamic because they don't entail winning a competition or becoming a 'superstar'.

i dream that i have spawned children {who will spawn children} with the gift of dreaming & believing cause reality is so OVERRATED!:-)

peace & OM:-)

mechie

Grace.

most days i am careful. careful not to allow myself to fall prey to complaining too much about my hectic schedule or life responsibilities. careful not to allow myself to ponder too much on what others don't do or should be doing. careful not to get too 'puffed up' about my own efforts to be a good person.

i am careful because i am aware that i have a blessed life & that it is by no grand-deed of my own, that i have it.

but there are days i fall short. and it is on these days that i want to be ever more aware of the Creator's 'grace' cause in truth, that is what allows me to move through life. day by day.

no one person is 'better' OR more 'worthy' of life's blessings than the next.

today that message washed over me when reading a posting by my friend Greggy. a man who in the blink of an eye, had his life flipped upside down just 6 months ago YET still manages to give praise & offer a kind word.

thank you mr. g for reminding me of how precious each & every day is. this day i am humbled & thankful for God's grace!

Peace & OM!:-)

Accidental Buddhist?

today a friend posed the question of how i became an 'accidental Buddhist'. truth is, nothing in my conscious being ever alerted me to the fact that i would one day find this eastern practice so naturally comforting.

as a child i was never exposed to other spiritual practices & was taught that ANYTHING outside of Christianity was 'pagan' worship. i faithfully attended church on sundays & bible class on wednesdays. i quoted scripture easily. i judged people who did not believe what i believed harshly.

i did all these things but God did not exist in my heart. not personally. not really. God was disposable. 

then life shouted... my maternal Grandmother was diagnosed with lung cancer & began her transition from this world to the next. as i witnessed the Creator honoring my Grandmother's life by granting her every prayer until death, my Spirit opened to the quest of living life with honor.

i prayed a simple prayer. that God would show me how & where he resided in ME. i wanted to be healed. i wanted to be renewed. i had no idea of what course my life would take {and it has taken many, many turns/twists/dips} but i learned to have real faith... the kind i had never known before.

by shedding first what i didn't believe {Kelly, you're on the right track girl!} i was able to dig deep to discover my own spiritual truth & that knowing sustains me daily.

it exists when no one else understands it OR believes its presence/value in my life. i have learned that it is not important that i find perfect words to explain my belief. what is important is that i LIVE my belief daily. moment by moment.

by sheer volition Buddhism has forced me to embrace a life that is more Authentic. more real. more true. when i fall short, it prompts me to dust myself off & try again & again.

it is the path for me. i know this now more than ever before & as i look back over the past 14 years at where i am today, i know that its presence in my life was NO accident!

it was my Destiny!

Peace & OM!:-)

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Life & Legacy...

today, my oldest brother H... just 49 years young... lies in ICU on a breathing machine unconscious... unaware of the fact that his right foot has been amputated & that doctors are considering the removal of more of his right limb & possibly the left… It seems that the blisters that developed on his feet a few months ago, did not heal & the infection has led to this…

I am heartbroken. I am prayerful. I am inspired.

heartbroken because in my brother I am witnessing the reality of potential untapped. Strikingly handsome & athletically gifted, he could have… SHOULD have been great. He was adored by family (the 1st grandchild) & no doubt desired and/or envied by others.

BUT... he has also harbored a lifetime of tremendous grudges & hurt that fueled his venom & anger…  he never healed or released life's disappointments. Never forgave transgressions. Never elevated his Spirit. He wielded pain & violence at will... without ever stopping to reflect on the cause or repercussions.

Some of his anger was justified… most of it not… but nonetheless, the strength of it is eating him alive. Hate, anger, venom, fear & rage kill Spirit & when it has consumed everything internally, it attacks physically… destroying the body along with it.

I don't think I've ever seen my brother happy...

For him, I pray that even in this H will see that the Creator is still providing him an opportunity to mend what has been wrong… there is still opportunity for him to attain the greatness that he was born to own… still opportunity to live a fulfilling & blessed life. He CAN be renewed...

For me, as I prepare for my visit… this journey home… I make note to verbally & mentally forgive ANYONE… ANYTHING... that has EVER brought me pain or harm… justified or not.

I am even more convinced & aware now of the power of life & legacy… that life & time is not to be wasted or taken for granted. That every act, thought & deed IS significant… producing karma that will either bring us peace or heartbreak.

I want to live ya'll… to flourish… to grow… to love… to leap into life unrestricted & unshackled..

If you think THIS mechie is a 'freespirit' wait until you see the NEW incarnation in action! though my heart is hurting, my Spirit is rejoicing (thank God for Grace) & my soul is flapping her wings... WIDE.

Please Friends... Pray. Meditate. Chant. Speak… blessings for my H.

Peace & OM!:)